Getting this job as a call center agent I know I’ll be talking to different people with different problems that has to be immediately resolved. I completely understand how frustrating it could be when calling for help and ended the call having the issue unresolved. This is because there are certain procedures and compliance that I need to follow to stay in this job. But sometimes, there are issues that cannot be resolved at all that the only thing left to do is let them understand the situation even if it crushes my heart.

Time flies so fast, I did not notice 

Having this feeling is such a wonderful bliss 

I thank God for His miraculous grace 

Another milestone achieved, I still see the same face 

The face that I never saw before 

The face I never thought I will adore 

Gives meaning in my life to worth living for 

I just love you from day one to forever more 

I cannot imagine how this will end 

I do not want you to be just a forgotten friend 

Everything I have for you will never bend 

For loving you is what I only intend 

Ever since I am with you I feel so fine 

In my own storm, you are my sunshine
You are the word stuck in my tongue I cannot define
Something like I am ME while you are MINE

Happy 2nd year ❤️

I got lots of failures in life apart from those I cannot remember but as time goes by I figured out something. Getting stuck or moving forward from those failures will actually do you nothing, c’est la vie, it happened and in reality, there isn’t like an Eye of Agamotto to turn back time. Not that I suggest to assent with misfortunes and shortcomings but if I did my best yet I failed according to the standards then what else do I expect?

1. I failed to finish my Bachelor’s Degree.
2. I failed to work in an IT company abroad because of number 1. 
3. I failed to take mom to USA 3 years after I graduated from college because of number 1 and 2.
4. I failed to quit smoking after several attempts. Plan F on the making.
5. I failed to fulfill several items from my bucket list this year.
6. I failed to do the laundry early this morning because of this blog entry.
7. I failed to continue this list of failures at least until number 10.
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To answer my nephew, I told him that I will have to find out when I turn 30. You know, like crossing the bridge when I get there.

Last night, baby baboy and I watched the movie, Bohemian Rhapsody, despite our busy schedules because I’m afraid it’ll be replaced soon in cinemas since there’s only one cinema left for the movie. I'm even determined to watch it alone since baby baboy was still on the way and we won’t make it if I have to wait for a little longer (although it would start a fight HAHAHA). Good thing we made it on time.

I was overwhelmed watching the movie that I cried a little because Queen is one of my favorite bands together with ABBA and The Beatles (I hope they’ll make a biopic of those bands as well). I grew up listening to their music since my father is one of their avid fans but lo and behold, I also become one of them. What I love about their music aside from the beats and the rhythms which brings me back to the past where I’m just innocent and fragile (unlike today as of writing HAHAHA!) is that they’re like telling a story behind each lyric. Although it’s kind of vague you’ll get the point.

What I like about the movie was it doesn’t just revolve on the life story of Freddie, which is obviously the most popular among the group 99% of the time. It’s more on like how the band was made and how they gave birth to each of their songs although they have to make sacrifices and even had a conflict of interest in between. Freddie, on the other hand, portrayed how power and fame can change someone and how is it not too late to take back what was lost. I know it’s just a movie, they may have exaggerated it and maybe some are just made up stories but duh! You get the thought.

My favorite part of the movie were the scenes when they performed some of the Queen’s records. I was there singing quietly but in my mind, I was headbanging and dancing and stomping and clapping that I want to scream on the top of my lungs together with the crowd when they cheered for the band. EEEEEEEEEEEYO! If only goosebumps can make someone explode, I’d be all over the cinema.

I am happy to know a portion of the Queen’s story apart from playing it repeatedly, learning the lyrics, and bravely sing it on the karaoke. Of course, it’ll take a lot of beer to fill up my belly before I could bring out my other self who is so talented I get ashamed when someone reminds me of what I just did last night. Ugh!

There are different people in this world – different behavior, different personality, different opinion, and everything is just different because that’s how it should be. I have all the option to avoid those that I can’t get along with but when it comes to being in the same place almost every day, now that’s another story. Let me talk about work. At first, I can’t deny that I do enjoy the company of my colleagues – eating out together, chilling out, and talk about of nonsense which actually helps build the foundation of our friendship aside from being workmates. But as times goes by there were things I observed, things that I really hate the most – betrayal of trust.

I, myself always try to be as honest as possible because there’s no point in being deceitful. It was later I realized that it isn’t the circle I want to be in. Talking behind someone’s back, putting someone’s name in shame, and instead of starting a conversation where everyone can relate and participate they’d rather start a topic of someone over and over again. While I know that it’s normal in Filipino culture but I have enough stress in life. I can’t waste my energy on something that will never benefit me, I may be a hypocrite for saying so but if you dislike someone then don’t talk about them, put them out of your system, and don’t make them feel you’re in good terms when you stab them a million times at their back.

That’s the reason I want to keep my distance. There’s no point of staying in the circle when I know for a fact they’d do the same to me. I’m not assuming that I’ll be a significant topic but I just don’t like that kind of personality. The kind of personality where you think you’re beyond perfection. Thanks but no thanks, just count me out.

Monday: I didn't even realize that it's Monday already. I feel so exhausted, Monday Syndrome? Not actually. Today was supposed to be the end of our shift for the week but since we're transitioning to a new set of schedule we have to work an extra day. Tomorrow's my father's 61st birthday and prior to this transitioning of schedule, tomorrow was supposed to be my rest day. Oh well, like I got a choice. Lots of things to prepare in a very short time.

Tuesday: Today, I turned into a zombie. Only had 2 hours of sleep and spent 12 hours at work (including travel time) and an estimated 3 hours of finishing touch for my papa's 61st birthday preparation. After I'm done with this, I should get a power nap because my eyes are now falling off. 

Wednesday: I suddenly woke up from what I thought to be a power nap, I hurriedly went outside of my room to make it to papa's birthday party but it turned out that it's already 5 o'clock in the morning. LOL! Last night, when every single in my body is unhappy, every single cell in my body is not well I went to bed for a power nap, put my headset on, and set my alarm after an hour. Turned out it was a power sleep. I can only imagine how fun and joyful it was through their stories during breakfast, lunch, meryenda, and dinner. I'll just review the CCTV footage later then. Sad.

Thursday: Orayt! I had a nice sleep, I'm completely refreshed now, and this is the last day of my rest day. Gotta do the laundry, get the high school diploma of my sister, and get my nephew at school. After that I'll take another good night sleep and I'll be ready to start another week of work.

Friday: I felt like it's also the end of my shift for the week HAHAHA! I drove to my nephew's school to get him and while I'm on the way I can't help but notice the volume of vehicles on the road. I wondered why the traffic was so heavy when it's usually smooth that time then I realized "Oh! It's FRIDAY!" Company buspool (not sure about the term), jeepneys loaded with students (because it's early out I guess), and maybe some people who are renting at the downtown area going home for the weekend. Well, thanks to JK's "Buwan" that I played over and over again just to keep my cool.

If education gives us the authority to discriminate others then I am ashamed to have it. 

I was at the smoking area together with two other smokers that were outside of the designated area which prompted the security to call out their attention telling them that they have to be inside the smoking area. The security actually did the right thing but the two smokers were not happy about it. One of the smokers said that he was too strict as if he’s a police insinuating that only a police officer has the authority to do that and the other one agreed by saying – in verbatim “skwela sa para ma police” (study first to become a policeman) and they continue their insults on the security guard until they smoked the butt of their cigars.

I tried to get their point that I finally realized they’re both pointless. I cannot imagine how difficult to follow a simple rule that is actually posted on all four corners of the smoking area and the fact that they work as a call center agent so they should be able to recognize that the security guard is just following the instruction stated to his job description. I feel sad for the security but I feel deeply upset for the two smokers for their ignorance and immorality. I’ve heard so many people belittling the job of a security guard saying that they do nothing but to spend their whole day standing at the gate but I think this is the kind of job where you actually dig your hole on the ground -- 6 feet deep. 

Some people are too quick to judge which doesn’t make them any smarter but more likely to be less capable of using their brain power. They were not actually insulting the security guard but themselves. I just have to write about this because I don't want to keep that memory echoing in my mind. Salute to all the security guards!

Monday: It’s the end of the shift for the previous week and I usually go to my baby baboy for babe time but since we’ve been through something, I just wanted to give the both of us a space to think about our actions. So I went home early and probably sleep early as well.

Tuesday: We went to our departed beloveds to take the chance while it’s not crowded at the cemetery, it saves us time and space. LOL!

Wednesday: FINALLY the wifi connection is back! We’ve been disconnected for like a couple of months for a reason that it doesn’t make sense if we continue to subscribe because the service is awful but still, we ended up getting it reconnected.

We recently had a conflict about something that we’re both not aware of. I am not aware of what’s happening to you and you were as well to me. I never get a hold of it for long because I always wanted to be honest with you no matter what’s the outcome that I finally brought it into your attention.

I was relieved to know that it doesn’t directly affect our relationship, by directly I mean we’re still affected but not that much LOL! You said there’s just something bothering you that I can never relate with which I completely understand. I don’t wanna be the hero of your life because I can’t be and although I may not be the best resource of the solution to your problems well, at least you let me know.

Unanswered messages, dry conversation, no contact for a day, and the worst was when I went to your place so excited to see you but then you were not there without telling me. I can give you all the private space and time you want, I can understand if you don’t want to see me for a moment, damn I can give your freedom! JUST TELL ME! Don’t leave me hanging thinking of the worst things, I was getting paranoid, clueless of what’s happening, what I’ve done, what I’ve said, and what I’ve missed. Then you said there’s just something bothering you that I can never relate that you asked for a little understanding from me. Okay, fine.

I just hope that you will get it resolved as soon as possible because I miss you so bad! I know time will change the way how we treat each other but not something like we are no longer to each other. I miss you baby baboy and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!