Love Moves in Mysterious Ways

I visited the vacant lot in the neighborhood the other day, it’s one of the sacred places during my childhood when there was an abandoned house right there where my friends and I used to hang out. Unfortunately, we may have overran the place or something that the supporting columns suddenly broke down until the entire house skewed towards the neighbor’s wall. It’s a terrible yet saddening event since we are to be blamed and we just ruined our supposed to be clubhouse.

Anyways, while I was there, a kid approached me and asked “naa nakay asawa?” (do you have a wife?) I can’t believe it at first or maybe I misheard the kid since I can’t get the picture of why such an innocent and young human being gets interested on the matter such as love life, then I asked him again but got the same question, I promptly said “wala pa” (not yet) and then he went off.

I know in my age I should probably take the quest of getting a family, but my love life is perfectly rounded than zero. I don't even have a partner and my previous relationships had the longest run for only a month. Right now, I've been enjoying myself alone for more than 6 years but I won't deny that I tend to engage on "flirting" which I find a lot better than keeping my hopes high on a serious relationship to an unserious person.

When I think of my way of living and my education, though it's considerable but still, I struggle. I'm trying to sneak what future will I give to my family if would it be satisfactory or just enough. I don't want to enumerate my doubts but they all seemed to be pointing out that I'm not yet ready, I'm a risk taker but serious matters like this should be well planned. While I can stand by my own if I really wanted to, but there are opportunities on this side where I’m at and I don’t want to waste them, again. I’ve wasted lots of opportunities back then, opportunities that were very significant if I took them seriously but I was blinded by my own ego, I was overwhelmed, and admittedly lose a huge amount that was supposed to be my investment for my future plans. I've learned from it. Right now, I’m back to the drawing board and along the process I'm not open to anyone that could pry into my objectives.

Until then, I should remain patient, just what they say "love moves in mysterious ways..." who knows, my other half is just around the corner.