"If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent Him" -Voltaire

Once in my life I made a BIG question to the world, does God exist?

I'm a Roman Catholic and a church goer almost every Sunday, listening to Gospel of the Lord is my way to refresh my self. It just so happened when I had a conversation with someone who told me to read the Revelation of John in the bible coz it will really freak me out. I did, and while I'm reading the book a lot of thoughts came into my head, negative and positive, unbelievable, I just don't want to believe like it's just a myth.

From their, my faith in Him started to bend down. But because of my great trust and hope I didn't let my mind ahead of me. I asked His believers with a question "do you believe that God exist?" including my sister and my mother, although they explain it well I don't find it satisfying. I even had a debate with the one who told me to read the book and to know his opinions I need to put my self as his opponent, that is, I become an instant Anti-Christ but that's just for a while, still I'm not satisfied with his answers.

Until such time that I came up to a conclusion that maybe God is just an invention for people to realize that we should live life righteously, that the bible is a compilation of promising stories for us to realize. Still, I'm not satisfied with my own answer.

I searched the internet with the same question, yet there are a lot of it but there is just one line that hit me so hard, it says "the question 'does God exist?' isn't the right thing to ask, rather it is 'how to prove in ourselves that God exist?'"

Not long before I received a text message from a former classmate and a present friend which says "Science without Religion is lame, Religion without Science is blind" I'm a big fan of Science and maybe this is one of the reason why it is hard for me to believe on things that doesn't have a certain explanation.

When I went for a Sunday mass I seated on the first 13 something row, enough for me to listen very while the Father is preaching, he shared a story of a kid who dig a small hole and when the kid was asked if what is the purpose of the hole he said he will put the entire sea in it, with that the Father raised a question if it possible for the kid to put entire sea into the small hole, no one raise a hand neither I, we pause for a moment until he explains that like the sea the Lord God Himself is too vast to put into our mind which was like the small hole, not all questions can have an answer, not all stories can be told.

Finally I realized that I've been sooooo fool to have such thought in mind. But thanks to the people who are involve in this post that are not aware that they helped me very much, sometimes I wonder does those people were God Himself to help me pull my self together? Whatever it is, I'm so thankful that God didn't let me to be totally separated away form Him. Thank you Lord, may Your rays of Your brightness gaze upon us that we may see Your guidance in our daily life.

For my first BMG blog post I would like to feature my dearly beloved Shennycat just to show my great compassion for cats. Her name was inspired from my niece named Shenny coz they are both irresistibly cute and if you think I was wrong to say so, fine.

We adopted Shennycat since she was just a weeks old kitten and now she's a six months old cat or kitten, whatever.

She may not be high-breed class but I like the way she is, a pure Filipino cat.

They say that a cat can be an effective stress reliever, indeed it's true, whenever I'm tired or feeling drowsy and when I see Shennycat I would instantly grab her and hug her tightly 'til I hear a faint sound of "meow" then that maybe the time to loosen up. LOLZ!

Anyways, thank you for having some time to read.

This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. -Psalm 118:24

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AMEN! I should be really glad today coz I am turning 22! Ahh... How great God is for giving me such wonderful life. Am I getting old? Yes I am but I don't really have to worry about my age, instead, it's my honor to reach this not-so-far, it's a God's gift and should be appreciated.

*Sigh I'm a bit sad coz this will be my first birthday that I'm away from home, but still I have my parents with me and my cousins and my new friends to celebrate this day yet the feeling of having all of your loved ones around you singing you a happy birthday is nothing compared to a hundred gifts.

Anyways, my wish for my birthday will be "I wish I'll have my first love life this year" they say it's difficult to love someone you really do but I won't believe on it not until I prove it to myself.

Thank you for having some time to read and don't forget to greet me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

PS:
This is a scheduled post due to a not-so-busy life.

sorry for the bad picture quality, am still away from home I just found this in my picasa album

When I think of the word "school" what goes first in my head are the things like homeworks, notes to study, overnight project, and early morning wake-ups etc. And now that I stop for a while I compared my self from the time that I went to school and in my status right now. There a lot of differences but what really caught my attention are the feelings and experiences when I went to college. Somehow, in the other way around there are occurrence that we usually ignore or didn't appreciate much as they can be normally done. From my own experience if I didn't went to school;

-I wouldn't experience how to be freaking nervous when my teacher calls me for a board work or in recitation.
I'm a kind of reluctant type person, though I know the answer I'm so hesitant to raise my hand and when my name is being called I got easily mental blocked which really made me look like a fool standing in class waiting for the other to answer the question until my teacher will tell me "ok, repeat the answer" deym! But sometimes I got no answer that's why I'm both nervous with "I know" and "I don't know" I lack the confidence, pathetic me.

-I wouldn't experience how to be super happy when it has announced that there will be no class.
I always wish that my teacher wouldn't come, specially when it happens that they are super strict, but most of the time my reason is -- I don't have an assignment, I didn't study for the surprise quiz (that's why it's surprise), I forgot my project or didn't made it. But then I realized that it's kinda boring when I don't have class, from the previous year I have vacant time for 3-5 hours staying in the lobby or in the computer lab or in the library but reading books really made me drowsy, just imagine the atmosphere inside the library, who wouldn't like to take a nap? But why didn't I think of having a "seat in" from the other class? Because... just read the 2nd paragraph.

-I wouldn't understand what is cheating.
I don't usually cheat in the class since in elementary to high school that's why I got the average grade of 76 when I graduated from HS. I made "kodigo" (cheat sheet) but sometimes I forgot or afraid to look at it I realized that it's my fault that's why I can't answer the question. But in college it's not easy to be alone, there are times that I have to rely from other's knowledge if I were to survive, this is when I started to cheat (LOL!) though I only copy paste the answer I still have to understand its content but of course only if the host (host? does it mean I'm a parasite? hahaha!) would spare me some time to explain "her" work (her -- because there's only one person that I always run into) so thank you so much for helping me out Mia Marchet Rama Rabanal.

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These are just few of my experiences, fun-facts as they are and maybe irrelevant for somebody else. We have different views, different understanding but do you think this can be accepted as one of the reasons why an individual must go to school? Guess no or maybe yes. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Why is that some people who are more inclined to their religion, who has greater knowledge about the good news of God, are those who are strict?

Before I bid my farewell to the Tuna Capital City of Gensan I so want to visit the rumored one of the great tourist spot of the city, the Olaer Swimming Resort. So this last Sunday, that was June 5, my uncle pick Olaer as the venue for the celebration of his daughter's birthday, how fortunate I am that he invited me to come along with them and without any hesitation I made ready my stuff immediately and make sure that my camera is on full charge, you know to keep a memories of the place that I've been there and for other purposes (like this) as well.
It was a approximately 20-30 minutes ride from the heart of the city and when I saw the signboard which will lead us to Olaer Swimming Resort I got so much excited, as happy like a child.

"High school Life ay walang kasing saya" -- Sharon Cuneta 

Way back 2004 when the BRIDGE program has been implemented by the Department of Education for students who still need assistance before enrolling as a Freshman in High School a lot of parents probably got angry about it, they said it's just an additional expense for their family. That's why the implementation became optional until it disappeared. Now a new program which aims to expand the schooling year in high school will soon be implemented, or maybe not. The government is planning to add 2 more years in high school so that'll be 6 years. They said that the global standard for basic education is 12 years and only the Philippines has the shortest cycle of this basic education from any other country of Asia. The program will give the students the time to read and to write and to do the standard exercise sets for the global curriculum.

"Ang kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan" -- Jose Rizal

True that they are, and somehow I agree to this program to add 2 more years in high school 'coz the intention of the government was clear, they just want to have a good quality education for our students, to be ready and armed with sufficient knowledge and as to follow the so-called "Global Standard for Basic Education". Yes, it'll be an additional expense for the parents but such amount is nothing compared to the knowledge that will be gained by their children, I'm not saying this because I already graduated from high school I'm saying  this because I found it very helpful for our youth.

However, education in the Philippines has been a problem ever since because of our corrupt government, there are many schools which lacks classrooms, chairs, books, and inappropriate number of students per section and a lot more resulting to inferiority of our educational system. If this program will be implemented a number of students in a section will dramatically increase because we're not sure if a student will pass to enroll to a higher year plus the upcoming students. The government should first pay attention to facilities of the school, more chairs, more class rooms, more books, more teachers, and just the equal number of students per section for a much better learning.

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In a nutshell, the problem is in the student. We should not rely the search for knowledge to our teachers all the time, it depends to the willingness of the student to learn. There are still a lot of things to discover in this world, soon they will find it out and realize that it wasn't so easy. But why do they worry? Isn't it true that high school life ay walang kasing saya?

We can see them everywhere, anywhere, anytime, buzzing around in front of your face, landing on your food with millions of bacteria right on their feet, who wouldn't be annoyed with that?