Dear Blog;

Guess what? Today is my OH MY BIRTHDAY! So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me! Finally I just turned 23 and I’m so much thankful I’ve reached this far in my life which means I’ll have another new year ahead to enjoy it and explore more about it. Life is so wonderful if you try not to be a fool although sometimes it’s good to troll people and as well as yourself. I’m so excited what will be this new journey has to offer but if I were to decide what will it be I would want to have more friends and of course more quality time with my love ones. I know what I’m asking for is too simple and so practical but I can’t ask for something which is so hard to be true, in my status right now? I’ll think about it next time.

Well, if you’d ask what I have for dinner I’m so sorry but there’s not any because payday is on the next day I’m not even sure if I’m gonna have a post celebration as what my friends keep on asking seeing as I’ll be off to Surigao del Sur by early in the morning tomorrow and I’ll be there to monitor things for a week or two. But this not like a grand celebration as if how I worry about it, it’s more likely of a primitive one, but don’t get me wrong if eating your meal on the banana leaf with your bear hands I call it primitive. Just seeing people smiling and feels no shame while dealing with it is more than enough for me to be special. Oh! Don’t forget the ever immortal “pancit” as it was believed to give long life, personally I don’t like pancit with my meal I’d prefer to eat it as a sandwich specially when it comes with a smoking-hot-freshly-baked-bread hmmmm! DELICIOUSO!

By now, I’m at home, taking a little time to write this post ‘coz after this I’ll have to organize and calculate all of the employee’s debit for this week, I’ll have to wash my clothes to prepare for my trip tomorrow, I’ll have to clean up my room, and I’ll be back to my mama’s work place for another set of debts which has to be included and should done by this evening. So maybe birthday party is over since I’m not kid at all, and I’m getting used to it since the last time when I turned 21, a men’s debut, and that was amazing ‘coz I received 21 kinds of different gifts, amazing isn’t it?

My wish for my birthday? Do I really have to do it? I guess I should ‘coz my wishes on my previous birthdays do all come true, to have a good health and world peace. But let me share this crazy wish I had when I turned 22, I wished, ok I begged that for my entire life I’m gonna found my first love, and the fairy-whatever said “SO BE IT!” waking up one day totally unaware what’s happening in my life then that was it. How I miss those days when we’re still together, when I know I’m smart enough but then it made me completely dumb, when my heart said “yes” and my head agreed, when… stop it you! LOL!

So my wish for my birthday is that my sister Apol which I usually call “tobol” will achieve all her dreams in life, to keep her safe and guided, to strengthen her faith, and to make her brave looking forward to have a good life while she’s at the far side of the world for the living. And for my family and friends, don’t worry I’ll always pray for you guys.

That’s it! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! And I hope I’d reach 24. LOL!

PS: I’m not sick, I just want to explore more out of the mysteries of life and I want to live more to hopefully figure them out, like what Terrence McKenny said “because the only understanding that will be useful to you is your own understanding” I know we all depart in this world but at least we live life joyfully.

Dear Blog;

While sitting on my rocking chair at the balcony with a cup of coffee in my hand ever astonish by the spectacular view of the hiding Mr. Sun behind Mt. Apo I can hear the annoying yet joyful voices of the kids playing on the street. From where I am I had the view of our little street from end to end, there the kids are playing, running, shouting so much noise surely an old man would go out and nag at them, but there’s not. I’d love to do so for interrupting my mutual link between  nature but when I realized I was like that when I used to be a kid I’ve no choice but to seat back and savor my coffee instead.

Looking back in my childhood where the world seems to be so huge you can’t measure it with your fingers, where you wake up each morning expecting nothing but fun, where you feel so safe from the monsters lurking in this world, where you have the freedom to speak what lies behind your tongue, and where being honest is effortless. Childhood is like the glimpse of eternal happiness, so pure, so clean.

Together with my older sisters and a circle of friends we would spend the whole day playing, playing, and playing. Rain or shine as long as we’re having fun but little did I know in such simple ways between playing and quarrels we’re also learning—we develop by ourselves a part of our personality.

But look at the kids nowadays; there are only a few who would play on the street ignorant of all the things this world ever has, while most of them are in internet shops gluing their butts on the chair building callus on their hands uttering words totally unpleasant to hear like it’s a needle directly pierced in your eardrums like you wanna super kick their mouths ‘til they puke blood and teeth fall off, but no, that isn’t absolutely the right to do. Meanwhile, when those kids are enjoying the limited childhood life and the other are building evil within their selves there are this unfortunate kids who struggle for life in a very young age, thankful enough to have their imaginary bed at the sidewalk, lucky enough to have a meal three times a day, these are the kids of direct assault from the evil monsters of this world.

Who would I blame? Their parents or those people who are unfair and don’t give a damn for the welfare of humanity? The community or the monsters that has the brain of a genius but without a heart of the nature? They say change is the only permanent thing in this world, but if change will bring sorrow and violence, despair and agony, is there anyway to stop it? If it is true that living in this world is by the concept of “survival of the fittest” should we left people behind close to hell? With all these questions my answer would be a BIG “I DON’T KNOW” if only I have power to heal every person I would have done it a long time ago, yes I know I don’t need to have any crap of whatever power it is to stretch out a helping hands. But I promise someday when fate agrees with me I will change the world for the good of everyone, I know it would be so little but big things starts from their. Until then I just hope I’ll wake up one day hearing only good news, which I think so impossible.